first step

i mailed my notice today. as of may 5th, i will no longer be living in my current apt. z and i will be moving in together. i'm both scared and excited. it's funny how much time i really spend at her place compared to mine so i don't expect it to be drastically different but there willl be a few changes. it used to be that if we wanted our own time, we could just split up and go to our respective places but now we'll have to find a compromise of sharing space while not invading space.

i'm kind of dreading the response from my landlord. i really hope they don't try to show the place while i'm still here. there's nothing worse than trying to get everything packed and ready to go while also making it look show-worthy. plus i'm paranoid of someone taking my things. another big pain in the ass is going to be getting rid of all the things i'm ready to slough off. some of it is worth money so i don't want to just take it to goodwill but putting forth effort to sell it might be more a pain than it's worth. i don't think i've told z that i'm a terrible packer. in that i'd normally fill a box with misc items that all fit rather than just fill specific locations into a box regardless of if it has too much extra room in it. we'll see how it goes.

we're off to d.c. tomorrow for a week. she's still sick and threatening an ear infection if she's not better by the time the plane starts to land. here's hoping she gets better or the drugs do a great job!

long pose

decided to try a mid-tone paper with white pencil as highlights and regular as shadows. this was a 20 minute sketch but i wasn't happy with how the white was coming across. i was using more waxy pencils, so maybe i should have tried the white charcoal pencil instead? maybe next time.

after that, i went back to my usual 2b on bristol board. i struggled so much with her hands. they still don't look good to me so i guess that's just what i need to concentrate on for a while, eh? overall, it wasn't the most appealing pose; her face was mostly covered, her back leg was in an odd position, she was wearing clothes :) but this is a two week pose so maybe i'll work on this one some more or just start over. maybe i should just do studies of her hands!

undecided

back and forth back and forth. z and i keep going back and forth on whether i should move into her place or for the both of us to move into a new place together. it seems like all the places we're looking at aren't that much bigger than her current locale but we'd be gaining our own washer and dryer as well as another bathroom (purrfect for the kitty boxes). on the down side, we'd be losing a great view, lots of floor to ceiling windows, and cheap(er) rent, and z wouldn't have to move. on the plus side, we'd get a flatter place to run around, a 24hr exercise gym, 2 covered parking spots, the aforementioned in-unit laundry, and an extra bathroom. i think if we're good about using space, we won't have to pay for extra storage but then again, i've got a lot of crap i seem to have difficulty getting rid of (packrat what?). rent would be more expensive than her current place but still cheaper than what we both pay combined so we'd still be saving money... just less so.

what to do?

too much tube

just stayed up a bit too late watching a great ken burns documentary on frank lloyd wright. if you get a chance and are interested in architects, check it out.

he was crazy but man, i love his designs.

i also finished off mad hot ballroom. a cute little story of competitive dance in a few new york elementary schools. i think they could have pushed the "keep the kid off the streets by dancing" a bit more. instead it just seemed like a "let's see who wins" kinda thing.

and since z is out of town, i watch more movies. i watched big fish last night. for some reason, i really liked it. maybe it was that i felt some sort of connection with the son who felt like he never really knew his father. the cast in this movie was perfect.

my servers finally came online late today. like right around 5:30. i skipped the long pose so i could get some things running and also, i wasn't that thrilled to be drawing jenny again. maybe i need to sculpt or paint a bit instead of drawing for a while? dunno...

blah

z is out of town so the bed is cold and lonely. my meals are frozen and microwave ready.

the main server i need to do my work has been down since sunday. normally, not doing any work is fine but it's a little annoying that i don't get to choose not to work.

i'm sleepy too.